Well, I mean I engage with music by playing it. When it comes to producing, I'm kinda lost. Making an arrangment sounding nice by the end is far different from expressing something inperfect by playing music. I've got this feeling that it used to be a producer's job, when musicians would be playing, doing their best for goodness to come out. But when it comes to electronic music, it's straight away into some producing stuff so that you can end up with anything. I feel that it's relating more to the intellectual, cognitive side of the brain rather than the emotionnal and communicating side.
When I play with an analog synth, I make incredibly trippy sounds that I can even reshape infinitly through midi and ableton… this is great fun (however infinity can give a sense of vertigo as well facing too many possibilities). But I feel it is hard to be good at everything. In a rock band, you've got the guitarist, the vocals, the drummer and the bass basicaaly. Everybody will be better by knowing anyone else's playing issues. But everyone's got his own job he's the best at. Everybody's got a role. Now here with producing it comes to get to everything right at a time ! Wow, how frustrating, and so boring, can it be to face this huge amount of work when you could have focused on melodies, drums or bass lines of your own, relating on other humans, not performing an incredible compilation work.
But i can imagine i'm kinda twisted here. :-)